baby i'm addicted

I dont remember from when I fell in love with her, but I know its quite
a long time. The first time I saw her, it was in a party, she was in a red
and white outfit. I was totally amazed at seeing her..what a sleek n
slender body. Man.. anyone would fall for her!! But I always had that
initial fear before starting anything like this. I didn't even know if it was
right. A friend of mine introduced her to me. It was the same week that
I met her again. This time, she was in a maroon costume. This time, I
wasn't so scared of her. I spent a lot of time with her that day. The
more I got to know her, the stranger I felt.

As I began to know her better, I realised that it wasn't just the looks, that
drew me towards her. It was the very air that she carried around her
that attracted me. I even remembering sneaking out of classes to be
with her. In a few weeks, we had become so close that I almost never
went anywhere without her. She always stayed close to my heart.

Soon my liking for her became an obsession. This started on the day
I saw her in a new form. Something was different about her today.
Even as a held her in my hands I could feel it. In a few minutes,
I was all over her and she was totally into me. She filled me with
ecstacy completely. I was in the heavens during the whole thing.
Never before had I experienced this. She took me real high and then
back just in under an hour. So thinking, I decided that we should do
it more often.

From then on, there was no stopping me. Parks, rooftops, my car...
I did it at many places. I was soooooo into her that I would give up
anything to be with her. Who knows.. I might even die for her..
I was entirely dependent on her. She was the driving force behind me.
Nothing would ever run everyday without those magic moments
with her in the morning. No job would run smoothly without deriving
some rapture out of her in the quiet afternoons.But of course, the
night times were the best!! The entire room would smell of her..

But soon she started giving me pain. That which used to give me
pleasure once was pricking me now. But I was helpless. She may
have lots of people to turn to, I had noone else. I wanted to tell
her 'sabko to chhod dee.. siva tum', just like SRK says in the movie Don.
I also realised that I cannot be holding on to her forever. I have to
let go off her someday, before she eats me up completely. Yet, I never
felt like letting her go. I wanted to be with her always. And now that she's
gone, i jus wanna be with her.. I remember this song which goes..
'hold me, thrill me, kiss me, kill me..' I held her, she thrilled me.
I kissed her, now shes killing me!! Entering in the rehab center,
all I can say is.. 'baby.. i am addicted.. am outta control'...
SMOKIN.... somebody.. stop me.. ;)